Tuesday, March 4, 2014

Adventures In Infertility: We Surrender

After our most recent Dr's appointment and an examination of our finances we have come to a decision...

We cry "Uncle!"

We are not going to stop trying we are just going to stop charting and paying money and driving ourselves crazy at least for a while.  We are out of money but we are not out of hope.

It's hard to wait, it is hard to try, it is hard to give up and it hurts to cry but someday we will know the reasons why.  The trick in the meantime, is to not let the joy of the journey pass you by.

“Life is but a Weaving” 

(the Tapestry Poem)

“My life is but a weaving
Between my God and me.
I cannot choose the colors
He weaveth steadily.

Oft’ times He weaveth sorrow;
And I in foolish pride
Forget He sees the upper
And I the underside.

Not ’til the loom is silent
And the shuttles cease to fly
Will God unroll the canvas
And reveal the reason why.

The dark threads are as needful
In the weaver’s skillful hand
As the threads of gold and silver
In the pattern He has planned

He knows, He loves, He cares;
Nothing this truth can dim.
He gives the very best to those
Who leave the choice to Him.”

― Corrie ten Boom

But don't worry, fans of my infertility faux pas!  I have almost 15 years of goodies saved up to share just with you!  And even if you don't like it or you think I am dumb to say it, it makes me feel better to share.  I wish someone had shared with me while I was going through all these many years of infertility struggles!

 *Laughter is the best medicine right?  Why not laugh at my infertility?!  I do not mean to offend with any of these posts, it is just a way to let go a little and see the humor in our situation. Please laugh with me!


Sharee and Arthur said...

Love you guys so much. Our hearts ache for you, but I know that God is mindful of you and your struggles and especially that the atonement makes up for everything that is unfair in this life. I don't know how, but somehow it'll all be made right in the end. I know it will.

Kimberly Kinney said...

I adore you so much.